Allowing God to use you in the season you’re in.
After the birth of my second child (at the age of 32), I felt a definite restlessness in my heart. It was a battle between being a good wife and mother versus stepping into something I felt God had placed on my heart, and that was to help the widow and the orphan. I always hated any form of injustice, even as a child.
At the time, there was no clear picture of what it would be, but I knew that this was my calling. The challenge was how to juggle raising two children and explore ideas of doing something useful with my life.
I remember so clearly crying out to God, “Is this it! Is this what you created me for, that I plod through life, going to gym everyday, meeting friends for coffee, shopping and then fetching kids from school?” It was a heart felt cry. I believe that day God heard my heart.
My husband was not serving God at the time and when I spoke to him about me getting more involved in the community through the church, he made it pretty clear, “Charity starts at home.” I could get involved, but if our kids suffered in anyway that their mom was not available for them because she was helping the needy and neglecting them, then he would put his foot down and I could no longer do this. I remember being so afraid… but God made a way.
As I made myself more and more available for God to use, so God put more in my hands and eventually gym, coffee dates and shopping were just a memory! My day became filled with SALT work and raising two children. Because I had no formal training as a social worker or in the field of community development I always carried this insecurity that I was not really the person for the job and that I was faking it. It was only after a conversation with Jason Render who has walked this road with me over the years, that I started to think differently. He sat me down and told me to stop referring to myself as “just a housewife.”
God had heard my cry and saw my heart and that’s all He needs. He will equip you to do the job. He just needs a willing heart.
God has been incredibly faithful. My husband got saved and my kids have been raised in the church. My family never went without through all the years of getting SALT firmly planted in the church. My husband was roped into many projects and became chairman of a home for abused children and ironically I would call him to ask if he would be home for dinner!
So now for some words of wisdom.
Don’t try to plan ahead step by step how it’s going to work out. Step out in faith. Trust me, God wants this more than you do. He wants justice. He wants the orphan to find a home. He wants the widow taken care of.
Don’t wait until you “get all your ducks in a row” So many of us say: “God once I am married and have had my children THEN I will be ready for you to use me.”
Or “When I am done with my studies, then I will be qualified to do this.”
Or “When I have enough money to give up my job I’ll do this full time”
Allow God to use you in the season you’re in. You might not be able to do this full time yet, or your kids might need a lot of your attention still. But start with what you have.
I am now on fulltime staff at View Church. We have a staff compliment of four with at least 45 volunteers a month who help out. SALT is not just a department of View Church, it’s a core value of what we believe the church is meant to be.
God can use anyone, even a bored housewife.
Pauline de Klerk